Interesting Evening

Tonight was one of those nights where I was often an observer of my own behavior and where I really did notice how different I am. I got together with 3 close girlfriends. It's always easy for us to sit around all night and talk and drink wine and snack. We still did all of that but I did the drinking and snacking in great moderation. Only 2 glasses of wine over 3+ hours and about twice as much water - I would have never balanced out the wine with water before. And my food consumption was also on the healthier (less poisonous! items) like the nuts, and cheese. Stayed away from the Fritos (mostly!).

My friends were all amazed and envious of the weight I've lost. And they are also unwilling at this time, to make the kind of commitment I have to being healthy and fit. I loved my time with them, but I was also the first one to call it quits for the evening and head home for a good night's sleep. It was enough for me.

I realize that doing things with some friends will change, is changing, because the focus is different for me. Feels a little bitter sweet. And yet I still know I'm better off. Can't say I'll ever get to the point that I won't enjoy a glass of wine, but that is just becoming more like background music, not a major part of my social activities. It's all good.